I'm scared of change. Anything that's new freaks me out. However, today I'm making a big change.
I've struggled with anxiety all my life. I've been on and off of anti-depressants. Lately, I've been really working on myself in therapy trying to figure out what triggers my anxiety.
I had an epiphany yesterday. I went to my favorite bakery and had a coffee and a slice of cake. After eating the cake, I felt anxious, strange in my own skin.
I called my friend amazing friend, Donna, and told her about this feeling.
"You know, " she said "Sugar can make your anxiety worse."
That had never occurred to me before. I always assumed my anxiety was internal, and there wasn't anything that I could do externally to control it. Then I thought about it, and she was absolutely right.
Whenever I've been in a particularly anxious state, I want nothing to do with sugar. All I want to eat are bananas, actually. Bananas are definitely my comfort food.
So, I've decided to cut out processed sugar from my diet.
But I figure, my mental health is way more important than cookies. It's time to punch anxiety in the balls.
Wish me luck!
I just saw my doctor for depression. I spent over an hour basically crying in her office. I'm starting on anti-depressants tomorrow, something I've never taken. It's a little scary, but I want to get better! I'm starting therapy too and it's a really big step for me because I've denied the fact that I need it for years. You know you said you got anxious after having coffee too...can caffeine trigger anxiety?
ReplyDeleteAww! Babe, I'm sorry. It's so hard. Depression sucks. But anti-depressants will help take the edge off for sure. I hope you feel better soon!! Yeah, I cut off coffee for a couple of months a while back and that helped. I'm going to begin with sugar, and then go from there.
ReplyDeleteCoffee certainly does nothing to reduce yee old heartrate ... This fact given to you by a 4-shots-a-day woman. But I feel ya. Been there, still there. Good luck!
ReplyDeleteOh man, I'm trying to get a handle on my sugar intake too. And I totally understand, it's really hard and it kind of sucks to say 'no' cookies. But you'll feel better in the long run, I swear! Good for you for kicking anxiet in the nuts! :)
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