Thursday, February 4, 2010

Saturn Returns and I Leave

The planet Saturn returns to the original position it was in when you were born between the ages of 28-30. I am going to get "new age-like" here and say that Saturn has returned to me in the past two years. My gut reaction is to hit the emotional road.


I have this feeling inside me, since I became a mother, that keeps urging me to evolve and change. But not just change. I want to leave. I want to abandon what is in my past and move on to my future. I am ready to close up old wounds and embrace what is to come.

I've never felt like this before. I am excellent at holding grudges, but I'm tired of these old patterns.

I am ready to become new again.

Being a mother is a new identity and evokes internal questions:
"Who am I?"
"Who am I to my son?"
"What do I want to do with my life?"

As Saturn returns to me, I've said hello to it, yelled at it, cried and attempted to make peace with it before I take road trip to get away from it.

4 comments:

  1. Wow! Interesting! I can't hold grudges. I could not like a person and want to be near them, but I don't have time for that @#*&!! If you want to move forward, you will.

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  2. I want to move forward, but wanting it and doing it are two different things. It's challenging to go through with change.

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  3. Pretty interesting stuff. Sounds good.

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