"It's okay babe, he didn't mean it."
I know he didn't mean it. He was trying to close the bathroom door, and my finger happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time. But damn! It hurt like a bitch! I was angry and I had nowhere to place that anger.
This incident got me thinking about motherhood. So much of motherhood is not glamorous. There's various media footage (movies, TV shows, commercials etc.) that present an alternate point of view, motherhood is happy smiling babies, and stroller walks in the park on a crisp autumn day with no humidity.
So. Not. True.
Now don't get me wrong, there are days that are good. There are days when my finger is not in the wrong place and doesn't happen to get mangled in a door frame. But then there are days like this. Where I'm tired, I'm frazzled, I'm angry. I just want a break.
Has this ever happened to you?
Um, yes. I want a break every day until I actually get one (rare, as I have no babysitter and no family within a thousand miles)...then after that I'm ok for a while until I feel I need a break again. Tahira has hurt me before, it sucks.
ReplyDeleteThank G-d you get it! It sucks, and it sucks bad getting hurt by your own kid! He was like "Sorry mommy!" and yet I still had to walk away!
ReplyDeleteI've determined that lack of sleep actually turns me into a monster with no regard for human life.
ReplyDeleteYes, yes I would absolutely agree with that sentiment.
ReplyDeleteI don't have kids but that sounds like my life every few weeks or so. I'm glad you were able to get a hug afterwards!
ReplyDeleteAw! Thanks Petunia! It happens to the best of us. That hug did make things better!
ReplyDeleteOf course... especially when I was pregnant and raising a toddler at the same time. Glamor and motherhood should never be used int he same sentence.
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